Songs to live by

Chorus from "The Breath You Take" by George Strait
Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
Ya just might miss the point
Try’n to win the race
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

"Live Like You Were Dying" by Tim McGraw
He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you’d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it?

"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."



"Less Than Perfect" by P!nk

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That’s alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, missunderstood
Miss “no way it’s all good”
It didn’t slow me down
Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I’m still around…
Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you’re less than
less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing
You are perfect to me
You’re so mean
When you talk
About yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all i can think of
Chased down all my demons
see you same
Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you’re less than
less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you’re nothing
You are perfect to me
The whole world stares while i swallow the fear
The only thing i should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried tried
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my genes, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than
less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you’re nothing you
are perfect, to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect
Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
like you’re less then, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel
like you’re nothing you are perfect to me

Stuff

i have always wanted to believe is myself but that has never come easy for me. i have never felt like i belong, kinda like everyone wanted to get rid of me... but the past little bit i have had 3 friends who have made me feel awesome about myself. and it isnt just because they treat like a real friend but because they ask me for help. it makes me feel like a have a purpose in this life for with all of the tragedies in my life i can help those in need...i makes me feel whole. and just at the beginning of this school year i was walking home from my job and just felt like singing (singing in public is not easy for me) and these 2 little boys ride their bikes up behind me and one of them starts singing what i was singing and it startled me so much that i turned around quickly and saw the 2 boys, they turned the corner as i was looking and the one little boy who was singing told me that i am a really good singer. and that made my day.

as a senior in high school it is the time to be applying to colleges. i applied to 3 colleges UVU (just cuz), SUU (it was found as a teaching institute), and Westminster (they sent me something saying that i wouldnt have to pay the fee in i applied). i went to SUU's open house and they accepted my on the spot. and last week i got an envelope in the mail from Westminster. and it wasnt some tiny letter, no it was a packet, i was accepted and given a merit scholarship for $10,000 a year for 4 years. so now i may go to school in a castle!!! it will be awesome. but im still trying to figure out why i got the scholarship, i have average grades and an average ACT score. but whatever im still happy that i got it =D

"to be or not to be" myself

lately i have had some problems and i always feel like i should feel how i do and that i should be always be a happy person because everytime i am not happy my "friend" chews me apart and when that happens i cant help but to go cry where no one can see the hurt. and i never use to show how i felt very well but lately i have tried so hard to open up but now i am scared to because of my so-called-friend, it seems like everytime i am at my weakest and am seeking help from people she hurts me more and i dont even ask for her help. what am i suppose to be, who am i suppose to be and how am i suppose to be. is there really a right and a wrong? ...am i a wrong?

Music

so i am in the music program at my school. my teacher is crazy and mean. my little sister had $355 stolen after one of the teachers classes and the teacher told my sis to her face "well that was stupid". like the teacher has never made a mistake, i cant believe the teacher said that.
we just recently had concert, our call time was 6 and we played at 7, we dont really do much in that hour. i asked if i could get to the school at 6:10 because i have a job and the teacher got mad and said that i had to there at 6 and that i should be putting school first. well i was going to show up late because i have to lock up an elementary building and i am the only one available because my co-worker has college and my boss is with his children, 3 of which are disabled. so i showed up late anyway and the teacher didnt say anything.
i am also in the musical. rehearsal is suppose to start at 2:30 and go til 7 but i have classes til 3:40. i asked the music teacher if i can leave at 6 so that i could make it to my job. she got upset and said that she was worried that i would always be late to rehearsal because i am 5-10 min late to her 6:15 AM rehearsals. she has let me leave early but i think she hates more because of it. there is a rehearsal coming up that i am going to miss, i was so worried to talk to her about it because it is the dress rehearsal and i needed to miss half of it, but when i talked to the teacher she just said to find out more info as to when i will be gone and see if i can come but when i am done. but yesterday i just realized that there is one more reahearsal that i need to miss part of because my school is doing college application stuff and is paying for one of our application fees. i havent talked to my teacher yet and i am worried about talking to her.

Friends

Friends are life, for without friendship there is nothing. They say that friends you make in high school disappear when you start college, but I think that that will only happen if you let it.
Fights and mistakes happen, but it is from those fights and mistakes that we learn. and it is up to you to be the bigger person if the fighting doesnt cease. For friendship is sanity whether or not you are in a school for crazies.